the other side...

Ever get so mad at someone that you run off to bitch to your friends and then they get this immensely skewed perspective of the person. Of course, in your anger you fail to also mention the good aspects of the relationship. Sometimes, on occasion, when you're REALLY pissed off, your mouth runs away with the momentum of your emotions and I'll start to blog negatively about your insignificant others. Oops, did I say "I'll" I meant, "you'll start to..." ?

I have been known to rant, rave, froth at the mouth and let my blog get the best of my emotions. It feels good to pour out the emotions. However, I Want to say that in defense of my current bf, there is a great deal that I did NOT mention about him and about our relationship.

Firstly, although I've known him since October, ours has been a turbulent relationship. He and I are VERY similar and we have never ever dated anyone like ourselves before. Is that right? I'm a different type of person, one he's never dated or even met before and he's a libertarian (I've dated them) but he's a libertarian WITH A BRAIN and his own thoughts!  We both thoroughly enjoy hanging out together  in spite some of the growing pains of our differences along the way. I'm overly attentive, affectionate, aggressive and intense and he is extremely laid back and passive. Maybe we're not good together, but we have fun regardless.

my only problem is that I haven't gotten action since... um... jeez. 2 weeks. I'm climbing the walls here.

back to my point, should a relationship be this difficult? I ALWAYS put up a major resistance when I first start dating someone. I don't know how to relax. I put the brakes on, start throwing out red flags... like the following:

1) He lives all the way in Dallas!

2) He's addicted to coke (true story)

3) He owns guns, "carries" in Virginia and is a registered republican!

4) He smokes, is a pot-head and has diabetes and complains that my 5k racing-ass is unhealthy!

5) He likes Dave Matthews!

6) He corrects my grammar!

How the FUCK am I dating these guys? Why do I let the dating move beyond the first date and turn into a full-blown relationships? Am I too open-minded? Is this why I'm constantly putting on the breaks? Guess which one Max is, of the above?  I never thought I could date someone with guns just by my sheer fear of them. Heck, I don't even like holding sharp knives. I like him SO much that I am trying to be accepting and hear him out. He's extremely interesting too.

Whatever happens, I think I'm going to cocoon myself in my apartment when I'm not at work. or at the gym. NO MORE MEN. NO MORE FRIENDS. I'm going into hiding until the spring. SWEAR IT!

Comments

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